Update On Joanne

I thought I had prepared myself for Joanne's passing, but I am finding that you can never be fully prepared for losing someone you love. I bought myself a breast cancer angel pin that I wear everyday for Joanne, somehow it comforts me. I never really thought that this awful disease would get the better of Joanne, I really believed that she would beat this, just as she did before. You hear stories of people dying everyday, but until it touches you, you can't truly understand the sadness and emptiness that you feel after losing a loved one.

I think about Joanne everyday, and cherish the time we spent together, and the special relationship we had. Right now, I find that those memories of her fill me with such sadness and an aching that just doesn't want to go away. I miss her so much, I find myself crying at the silliest things, and then I can't stop. I am tired of applying hemorrhoid cream as a part of my daily make-up routine, to reduce puffiness!! I wish that I could be with her wherever she is, that is the hardest part. I know in time, the pain will ease and I will be able to remember Joanne with happiness instead of sorrow. This blog has been a huge help for me through it all, and I know all of you who read this know how I am feeling, so I am not alone.

I spent the day with Mike, and the kids were out and about, they are all doing fine and I think it is in part to this wonderful, supportive, framily that surrounds them. What I like best is that when I see the kids, I see Joanne. I think someone wrote in this blog that they wouldn't trade the pain they feel now, for not having known or being close to a loved one. I am happy and thankful for the friendship we shared. I will love you Joanne, forever and always.
May you rest in peace, your beautiful family is in good hands.
Take care Daquano family,

I love ya!
Martha Quinn